If I was in a wheelchair, it would be easier for people to understand that i am physically challenged. If i was struck by sudden blindness, diagnosis would be immediate and credibility would be given to the devil. but in the case against depression or mood disorders, my feelings and the real state of my countenance are invisible and subjective, making it hard to comprehend. If my outward appearance reflect the true picture of how bad as I felt on the inside, people would have identify with my disgust,irritation or pain.
that is what depression feels like, No one seemed to understand my feelings of hurt and displeasure, yet I was sure that everyone thinks of me as a fool based on the way i feel about the embarrassing secret that accompanied my poor business decision that led to my indebtedness and major flaw as a business startup. The feeling of been completely useless clouds your judgement and rational thinking. From days to weeks, month and years, majority of my innate energy went into hiding my defective worthlessness. I smiled, laughed, joked around a bit and worked relentlessly but when the sunsets , as i hug my pillows to sleep steaming hot tears flow like a river and soak up my pillow. At sunrise, attempting to out perform expectations, I would pretend to be happy all over again.
Depression is a feelings of severe despondency and dejection. Depression can really hurt the soul and make you suicidal. it could slow down the pace at which you run your race, depression breeds fear and make you unstable. it can even make you blind, cause to lack clarity of vision or a sense of purpose, no hope for what the future holds, low self‐esteem, poor decision making abilities and no energy for a new position or attain new heights
Therefore if depression is this destructive how can we survive depression? from personal experience and the therapeutic approach recommended by professional psychologists, i h recommend but a few but notes that has worked or is working for me, however it is not the only approach
first of all, have you tried opening a corked wine or carbonated drink? the bubbles and air stocked within the bottle burst out with a sound or surge that seems to scream for freedom. personally, that’s the first therapy, look for someone you can open up your feelings of disgust,irritation and pain, someone who will not condemn or judge you in bad light but give you a listening ear. I really feel bad sometimes when i let some folks know about certain mistake i had made and they respond without listening properly to my pain by telling me what i should have done or why didn’t i do this or that. in my heart i would say to myself or share with them that if i had done what they recommended, its true i won’t be probably or totally messed up but the deed is done and the die is cast, i am looking for an exit from my pain and not considering factors that led to the poor decision i had made .
My friends , it important you look for someone with a listening ear and an understanding heart to share your feelings of depression. when you are done sharing the show empathy, there’s always a feeling of relief that accompanies sharing your depressed emotions with someone who’s willing to listen and help where necessary
secondly, living in isolation or seclusion is a death trap for any depressed person, do your best to hang out, attend meetings or parties. yes parties. i remember most times when my depress self begins to come out of its closet, i run to church when its a service day, you can imagine the miracle that often takes place after a variety of musical rendition from musicians in church.
always seek help when you are depressed and don’t let depression cloud the desktop of your mind thereby posing as a major hinderance to your effectiveness and efficiency at work, home or place of business.
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